Anne&Liis

Day 14 - how you hope your future will be like

2011-08-23T12:17:00.000-07:00

Well, so much of my blog challenge. Totally blew it! But life's been busy busy! Visited home, moved to another city, got a new job and actually still in a moving process to a new apartement. But just to finish the topics I put up there, I will try to write about all of them.

My future will hopefully be bright and happy! :))
For that I hope I will have a special somebody always next to me and also my family and friends. Few bright kids would also be nice ;) Job, that I like and brings in enough money to live easily (I don't mean being super rich just to get through life rather easy, meaning not needing to count money for everyday stuff).
Njaa, it's hard to describe but happy personal life is definitely my coal!

Day 13 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life

2011-08-06T15:02:00.000-07:00

I hope that moment is yet to come!!!

But if I need to point out something I would say one special night at the beginning of April 2010 in US, another day in US when I figured what I want to start studying and a day recently, in Germany when I received a letter that I have been accepted to the school.

Day 12 - A photo of something that makes you happy

2011-08-02T14:09:00.000-07:00

Since it's 'something' I have to post a photo of I cannot choose my lovely people around me, who actually make me the happiest person on Earth! Neither can I pick just one photo of something I like so ... you get 3 instead :)

Cloooothes! and shoooes and accessories all that we call FASHION!

Drawing it, buying it, making it yourself or put in on a runway, everything that has to do with it,I loove!

Foood!! Love to try out different cuisines and different dishes. Also love to cook myself!

Nature! The beauty of it! Specially the beauty of my own home country. Going home always makes me so excited an happy! :)

Day 11 - your views on religion

2011-08-02T13:53:00.000-07:00

I decided not to write this post last night (even-though I was already behind my schedule) because I was feeling really sick. Therefore I thought won't have anything smart to say. Well, the truth is I still don't feel as if I have much to say about it.. I mean, no, I do have my opinion about this, I just don't feel like philosophizing here tonight.

In general though, I think religion is necessary. It's good to have somebody (who may or may not exist, choose yourself) to put your trust in. Somebody to share your happy and sad days and if needed ask for help. Of course, for the same reason you have all your family and friends around you but sometimes it's just not enough to relieve all your stress. And sometimes, unfortunately, they are not even able to help you in case of sicknesses or just upcoming future which is just somehow out of our hands. In those cases it's good to put your trust in somebody supernatural cause the things you pray for are the same, out of your hands and power and run by some other rules than yours.
Another important point: No matter how exactly you call your God, I do believe that religion is a peaceful thing, something that makes yourself and people around you more happier, nicer and more generous. No religion should be about violence! That's wrong!

As for me, I'm born and raised Christian.

Best Coast - Our Deal

2011-08-02T11:35:00.000-07:00

Well, the story is just sad..

Director: Drew Barrymore

Get More: MTV Supervideo, Music, Best Coast

Day 10 - Something that is part of your routine that you enjoy

2011-08-01T02:18:00.000-07:00

Well, my routines are all... interrupted. Currently I have nothing I could consider as a routine. Maybe just my weekend getaway's to Cologne but now I'm moving there just in couple of weeks so...

But routines I would like to get back and which I used to loooove would be: waking up the earliest at 7am and have my morning coffee with fresh newspaper in a language I can read and understand, have an actual job or school to go to in the mornings (Au-pairing is not so cool by now, living and working at a same house gets boring), and in the evening relax watching TV (also in a language I can fully understand) and enjoying good company.

Day 9 - Song to match your mood

2011-08-01T02:08:00.000-07:00

Little Owl Design - Fisherman Under the Palm Trees

2011-07-28T13:46:00.000-07:00

I LOVE IT!

Check out their webpage for more! Great stuff! This one is my favorite and of course that's the one sold out :)

http://www.littleowl.eu

Day 8 - something with which you struggle

2011-07-28T12:23:00.000-07:00

Saving money. I'm no good at it. No matter how hard I try it just slips away. It's embarrassing!
Well, it's not that I earn that much neither do I go shopping that often, I do every now and then but I never spend a lot. And yes I do like to go out and have couple of other things to pay for every month but still... I never really understand by the end of the month, where did all my money go?! I need a personal financial assistant (who will not get paid cause I don't have money anyways, haha!)

Day 7 - write 15 interesting facts about you

2011-07-27T14:50:00.000-07:00

Ahhh, I really wished it was an easy one tonight. Boo-hoo!

1. I peeled a whole potato all by myself when I was 2 years old.
2. Probably the first memory I have is from when I was about 5,5 years old and I was insisting my mom to write me into 1st grade. I was pounding my feet against the floor and didn't stop until my mom called the school.
3. My dad left my name into his working desk's drawer and left to Denmark while my mom was pregnant. He didn't know if it was a girl or a boy but he had a feeling for a girl. So once I was born my mom called my dad to ask how should they name me, he asked her to take a look in his drawer. And there it was: Anne-Liis!
4. I have 2 sisters and 4 brothers and they're the best!
5. I met my current boyfriend while we were both Au pairing in USA (both coming from different countries), didn't know what was gonna happen from there. Without planning things happened so that now we are happily together in Germany for more than a year.
6. Twice I have had my hair so long that it could reach my pants and then cut it really short, up to my shoulders.
7. One part of my name means 'talent' in Estonian. Anne = talent
8. I dreamed of being a designer or work in fashion business when I was in 4th grade or so. I also wished to study abroad. Then I forgot about my dreams and thought they will never come true so I took a different direction and found new kinds of dreams. Yet now I'm accepted to a University in Germany for studying Textile and Clothing management. And things just happened that way as if my dreams were still alive and fulfilling themselves.
9. I come from a Christian family where my dad is a pastor and mom as a Sunday school teacher (+ kindergarten teacher).
10. I am awfully attracted to love stories, books or movies and always dreamed of finding my Prince Charming.
11. I LOVE to SING and make music with other people!!!
12. I am NOT a morning person!
13. I like to turn on music as loud as possible and sing and dance in front of my mirror to my hairspray (Yes, ofc when I'm home alone)
14. My fav position to fall asleep is on my right side, hugging my extra blanket and kinda leaning on my belly.
15. I started to sew my own clothes in 5th grade. Ofc the first attempts were rather sad looking.

Day 6 - A time you thought about ending your own life

2011-07-26T14:40:00.000-07:00

Whooaa! That's deep!

Ok, but as far as I can remember I have never thought seriously about ending my life. I mean I've only thought about when I hear about people doing it to themselves. So then I try to imagine if I could do anything like this to myself. Never!!
Everybody feels down every now and then and there has been times when I wished that I wouldn't exist, had a different life or that the ground would've just eaten me on that very second. Just to not to be there cause on that moment everything seemed to be bad. Yet it's never that bad that I would try to hurt myself. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel. There's always people around me who love me and help me. As a matter of fact I also love myself and my life too much to end it. Hard times only exist for the better ones to come and for you to recognize them.
Actually the previous post, which is unfortunately only in Estonian, talks about positive psychology/positive thinking that helps you to be more successful and happier in your life. It also provides you with 5 different exercises to help you gain more positive thinking. I do believe I'm pretty happy person already but it never hurts to be more happier, now does it? I strongly recommend you to read it, even if you don't speak Estonian. Try Google translator, it does pretty good job at it since the Estonian version has a great structure.

SMILE! No dark thought people! Just keep thinking about upcoming good things you're excited about, work out, meditate, do good favors for other people and let yourself to have some nice treats every now and then. :)

5 harjutust elurõõmu suurendamiseks

2011-07-26T13:08:00.000-07:00

Hea leid Sisekosmosest!

Mõned nädalad tagasi kirjutasin ma artikli teemal "Kuidas kogeda elurõõmu?". See oli lihtne, kuid natukene provokatiivne lähenemine sellest, kuidas me tavapäraselt otsime rõõmu ning naudingut kaduvatest asjadest.

Samas on naudingujanu meile - inimestele - täiesti normaalne. Jah, me saame selle käigus küll mõnikord haiget, kuid sageli leiame sellest ka joovastust ja tõelisi võite. Kõik on ju tasakaalus. Ei tasugi loota, et kõik inimesed otsustaksid ühel hetkel naudingujanust loobuda ning otsida elurõõmu ihadest ja unistustest vabanemise kaudu.

Positiivse psühholoogia võidukäik
Kui me otsustame elada normaalse inimese elu, peame leidma viise elust rõõmu tunda. Valgustunud budasid, kes oma ihadest ja soovidest kõrgemale on tõusnud, leidub maailmas siiski vähe. Tavaliste inimestena peame rõõmu mingite muude vahendite kaudu otsima. Me võime küll teadvustada, et elurõõm lihtsalt olemisest on olemas, kuid isegi 99,99% nendest inimestest, kes kogu elu sellise seisundi saavutamise nimel tööd teevad, lahkuvad siit ilmast ikkagi klammerdudes ning seeläbi kannatades.

Umbes 15 aastat tagasi toimus psühholoogias väga oluline murrang. Nimelt oli seni inimesi psühholoogia kontekstis uuritud eesmärgiga "põhja vajunud" indiviidid normaalsuse piiresse tagasi tuua. See tähendab, et teadus oli ära kaardistanud, kuidas käitub normaalne inimene, ja psühholoogia otsis sellest lähtuvalt võimalusi neid indiviide aidata, kes olid sellest normaalsuse piirist allapoole vajunud.

Positiive psühholoogia pioneerid - Phil Stone, Ellen Langer ja Tal Ben-Shahar - märkasid aga, et nii nagu mõned inimesed on kukkunud allapoole normaalsust, ja vajavad seega psühholoogiat, on mõned inimesed ka ülevalpool normaalset, saavutades töö juures ning eraelus palju paremaid tulemusi ning elades seeläbi oluliselt paremat elu. Neid hakkas üha enam huvitama, mida teevad need "erilised" inimesed teisiti, et nad normaalsuse piiridest välja on rebinud ja naudivad niimoodi paremat elukvaliteeti. Sellisel viisil sai alguse uus psühholoogia suund, mis ristiti kiiresti "positiivseks psühholoogiaks" ja mille nime all on viimase 15 aasta jooksul läbi viidud tuhandeid teaduslikke uuringuid selle kohta, kuidas positiivsus ja elurõõm aitavad paremaid tulemusi saavutada.

Positiivne psühholoogia oli teaduses umbes sama murranguline nagu Koperniku avastus selle kohta, et Maa tiirleb ümber Päikese, mitte vastupidi. Samamoodi arvati mitusada aastat, et õnn pöörleb edu ümber: mine heasse kooli, saa hea töökoht, tee karjääri, saa rikkaks ... ja siis tuleb õnn. Positiivne psühholoogia on selle väite aga oma uuringute kaudu ümber lükanud, öeldes hoopis: ole elurõõmus, positiivne ja õnnelik, ning seeläbi suurendad sa oma suutlikkust kuni 30%, mille tagajärjel saavutada sa ka edu nii töö juures kui eraelus. Proovimist väärt, kas pole?

Positiivsus on iga inimese enda kätes
Teine väga oluline avastus tehti üheksakümnendate aastate alguses veel. Sedapuhku mitte psühholoogide, vaid ajuteadlaste poolt, kes avastasid, et inimese neuronstruktuur (aju) suudab end ümber programmeerida elu lõpuni, mitte aga ainult kahekümnenda eluaastani, nagu seni oli arvatud.

Kui need kaks avastust - normaalsest kõrgemal leidub teatud hulk väga elurõõmsad inimesi, kes saavutavad palju rohkem, ja aju suutlikkus end vanusest sõltumatult ümber programmeerida - kokku panna, jõuame väga huvitavate faktideni:

Fakt 1. Sõltumata, missuguseks inimeseks sa end seni oled pidanud, on sinu enda käes võime seda muuta.

Fakt 2. Muutes end positiivsemaks ja elurõõmsamaks inimeseks, saavutad sa nii töö juures kui ka eraelus palju paremaid tulemusi. Sa oled õnnelikum, sul on paremad suhted ning sa tunned elust rohkem rõõmu.

Kuidas elurõõmu suurendada?
Eelnevaid väiteid arvesse võttes kerkib nii otseses kui kaudses tähenduses miljoni euro küsimus: "Kuidas suurendada elurõõmu, et seeläbi paremat eraelu elada ning paremaid tulemusi töö juures nautida?"

Alljärgnevalt jagan sinuga 5 väga lihtsat tehnikat, mis aitavad sul positiivsem olla ning seeläbi oma aju ümber programmeerida ning perspektiivis paremat elu nautida.

Elurõõmu harjutus 1: Mõtle millegi positiivse peale
Hoia oma mõtted millelgi positiivsel, mis on sinu elus tulemas. Näiteks plaanid sa minna kahe nädala pärast reisile või juba sel reedel ägedale sünnipäevale. Mõtle nende ürituste peale. Uuringud näitasid, et inimesed, kes mõtlevad pelgalt oma lemmikfilmi peale, suurendasid õnnehormooni endorfiini tootmist kehas 27% - nad olid sel hetkel 27% õnnelikumad kui muidu.

Elurõõmu harjutus 2: Tee midagi head
Teadlik ning egovaba heategu tõstab meie enesetunnet väga palju. Üks uuring, milles osales enam kui 2000 inimest, näitas, et inimesed, kes otsustasid iga päev kolmel korral kellelegi midagi ilusat öelda või teha, tundsid end järgnevatel nädalatel oluliselt positiivsemana kui varem.

Elurõõmu harjutus 3: Mediteeri
Teadlased on avastanud, et munkadel ja joogidel, kes on mediteerinud aastakümneid, on aju otsmikusagar, mis on inimese kõige olulisem "õnnekeskus", palju suuremaks arenenud kui tavalistel inimestel. Siiski ei ole vaja positiivse meeleseisundi loomiseks mediteerida 10 aastat. Uuringud näitavad, et piisab täiesti 5-15 minutist päevas, et meie stressitase langeks ja me tunneksime end positiivsema ja empaatilisemana.

Elurõõmu harjutus 4. Tee natuke füüsilist
See on ammuteada fakt, et füüsiline treening toodab meie kehas õnnehormooni endorfiini, mis tekitab meis hea tunde ning muudab meid positiivsemaks. Lisaks sellele näitavad aga viimaste aastate uuringud, et regulaarne treening vähendab oluliselt ohtu peale treeningute lõpetamist depressiooni tagasi vajuda. Ühes uuringus kasutati depressiooni vastu võitlemiseks nii medikamente kui treeningut, kusjuures medikamente tarbivatest inimestest vajus 6 kuu möödudes depressiooni tagasi 38%, kuid treenivatest inimestest ainult 9%.

Elurõõmu harjutus 5. Luba endale ilusaid kogemusi
Kui sulle meeldib šopata, siis sa tead, kui hea tunde see tekitab. Siiski on tavapärasest ostlemisest saadav nauding väga lühiajaline. Oluliselt tõstab aga meie õnnetaset raha kulutamine mitte asjade peale, vaid põnevate kogemuste peale. Ühes 150 inimest kaasavas uuringus ilmnes, et inimesed, kes otsustasid raha kulutada seikluste, kontsertide jms peale, kogesid teatud perioodil oluliselt rohkem elurõõmu kui need, kes kulutasid sama raha näiteks riiete või elektroonika peale.

Valik on sinu, kas sa neid harjutusi kasutad või mitte. Positiivne psühholoogia näitab, et elurõõm "võidab" stressi ja depressiooni. Kumma meeskonna sina valid?

http://www.sisekosmos.ee/meelerahu/5-harjutust-eluroomu-suurendamiseks/

Day 5 - put your i-Pod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up

2011-07-25T12:09:00.000-07:00

1. Adele- Crazy for you
2. John Legend - Everybody knows
3. Adele - If it hadn't been for love
4. Will.I.Am - Ain't it pretty
5. R.Kelly - If I could turn back the hands of time
6. Maroon 5 - Runaway
7. The Dream - Right side of my brain
8. Kanye West - Champion
9. Dagö - Moedem
10. Usher - Making love (Into the night)

Day 4 - something you regret not having done last year

2011-07-25T12:05:00.000-07:00

I do not have many regrets and even if I do, they all go away with time.

Last year was so amazing and tons of new things got done so it's hard to find something that I didn't do but truly wanted to. Still, I can point out one thing, I regret that I didn't make it to Miami, FL. Yet, it's not a thing that could've done only last year, so I'm taking it easy and hoping that one day I will have another change to go there. :)

Day 3 - something you're looking forward to this year

2011-07-24T15:11:00.000-07:00

So, the weekend passed in Cologne which is why there's no daily posting.
Since it's quite late I only update this blog here with one new post. For now.

Honestly I believe I have never been so excited about my (near) future, meaning there's so many things to look forward to! Big time changes for my life! First of all, getting own flat which would be the very first one that I could call my own (our own, really). Then starting my DREAM studies, in fashion! and getting a job. And as exciting as it already sounds,the excitement doubles up since I'm not doing it in my home country where it would be 10x easier. So you can only imagine the excitement and also the stress I have.
I'm also looking forward to go visit home in August and hopefully during X-mas time.

OK, I did expect this post to be longer that it actually turned out to be. There would be many things to add as an explanation but... I guess I'm not feeling like it. It would turn out to be waaay too deep. So I save you from it and say: "Good night my dears!"

Day 2 - my current relationship

2011-07-22T08:46:00.000-07:00

... makes me feel like I've never felt before and therefore I'm the happiest person on Earth!!

Day 1 - a photo of myself and a description how my day was

2011-07-22T08:45:00.000-07:00

Well, I failed already on the first day of my challenge. Congrats!

Anyway, but once I tell you how my day was (yesterday), you'll understand.

So I woke up quarter to 7am, with a headache, having gone to bed at 1am the night before. We had a lot of fun at Kirmes! (it's like Tivoli or 10x smaller Six Flags) I prepared the breakfast and fed the animals, as usual. Then went back to bed just to be woken up by an awful noise coming from the workers renovating the house here. And that was just slightly after half an hour I had rest my head on the pillow. Alright, couldn't sleep anymore, made a walk with the dogs. By the time I got back the postman had came by and left me a letter, yay! That was a notice from the Uni that they have received my application which was filled properly. Great news! Still, my TOEFL results have not yet come in, so they wait until 29.July and if the letter is still not there, I'm considered as 'not qualified'. Not so great. I do not understand, how come all the other letters from States arrive within a week but the letter from ETS takes 4 weeks?!?! Oh well, we pray for the best!
I continued my day with loads of ironing (ooh boy, how I love it -.- ) and my headache. Had some drivings to here and there and the day passed... with more ironing. So when I finally was done with everything it was 7pm. Since I still had a headache and no energy I decided to take a little nap. When I woke up it was 11.30pm. So I changed and went back to bed. And that's it! That was my EXCITING day of ironing and headache.

Tired fake smile, like I made it yesterday

30 day challenge(s)

2011-07-20T07:28:00.000-07:00

So I was just surfing around today and bumped into the following video..

and after being inspired by that I decided for two kinds of 30-day-challenges I wanna pick up.

One of them being quite popular right now 'My 30 day Blog challenge', which means by the end of next 30 days I will have 30 new posts. I might not be able to post one everyday but heey, I'll make it up to you the following days then. Why I'm doing that? Cause I love to write and since I've gotten really lazy, those 30 days will hopefully boost it up.

So but that's the first one of them. Second one will be 'living a healthy lifestyle'. Not that I'm being unhealthy right now but I figured I could really push myself to work out every single day not just 3-4 days a week.

Also, I won't have a single sip of this beer here anymore! Germans start and end their days with a beer and guess what they have for lunch?! Beeer! Yeah, anyway, I'm gonna give it up. Hasn't done any good anyways.

Right, and then sugars...

Wrong! I'm not gonna give it up!! But I could cut a little on those sugary sweets I tend to have every now and then. Lucky me that recently I'm not really craving for sweets.

So but with the second challenge I probably won't keep you updated, unless I fail. But that won't happen!

I will be done with both challenges by my mom's Bday, that is 21. August. Let's cross our fingers that I'm gonna succeed.

Arutelu iseendaga

2011-07-19T13:19:00.000-07:00

Vahel mõtlen, ei tea miks ma oma asjaajamisi just nii väga siin pean tegema. Valetan, mitte vahel, vaid päris tihti jookseb see mõte läbi. Kui kaugel ookeani taga olin, siis koduigatsus nagu ei olnud eriti päevakajaline teema. Võib-olla kuna teadsin, et reaalset kodukülastuse võimalust ei teki. Samas aga ka fakt, et olin seal ainult aastaks, aitas olukorrast üle olla. Nüüd aga üritan siin ju oma elu üles seada ja kes teab kui mitu head või halba aastat see võtab. Loodame heade peale.
Ja igakord kui siis koduigatsus mul taaskord selle igivana küsimuse tekitab, alustan ma vastuste otsimisega. Üle kahe pole ma aga kunagi leidnud. Kool ja siinsed lähedased (keda ehk veel raskemgi jätta oleks).
Üsna pisiksest peale olen tahtnud väljamaal õppida, pole tähtsust kas terve kraad siin/seal omandada või lihtsalt korra aastaks jalga lasta. Hetkel tundub, et variandiks on 'terve kraad omandada'. Aga et Saksamaal moe erialale? No ei olnud küll algne plaan, aga kuskil seal sügaval kõhu-südame-kopsu sees on päris mittu rakku end alati siinmaal järele proovida tahtnud.

.. mõttepaus ..

Ma tegelikult isegi ei tea, mis pointi ma siin tekitada üritan. Ehk lihtsalt oma mõttekoopaid tühjendada ja stressi vähendada, sest toda viimasti on lähimal ajal kole palju olnud. Eestis kooli avaldusi saates oleks ehk kerge võbin sees, et ei tea kas võetakse. Siin on kergest võbinast saanud igapäevased kõhukrambid! Aga tegelikult ka, kogu mu lilleliselt planeeritud super-plaan lendaks kole valjusti õhku kui koolilt saabuks negatiivne vastus. Vähemalt nii arvasin ma kuni tänaseni (mis oli muideks järjekordne stressi- ja töörohke päev). Täna pärastlõunal saabus positiivne uudis: minu jaoks on olemas potensiaalne töökoht, (kui proovipäeva läbin, mis aga ei tohiks väga keeruline olla) ning sõltuvalt kooli vastusest pakutakse mulle kas täiskohta või tudengile kohast pool töökohta. Mõlemal variandil on omad varjuküljed. Neid pole aga mõtet kaaluma hakata, sest fakt on see et ma nii-nii väga tahan uuesti õppima hakata. Tundub, et mu ajurakud surevad iga sekundiga.
Gümnaasium oli ilus aeg! Mitte et mul praegu miskit viga oleks, peale fakti et oma elu üles rajamine välismaal on tunduvalt hirmutavam kui kodumaal. Seda enam, et keelelised raskused on endiselt aktuaalne teema. Tegelikult tunnen aga oma musikaalsetest hobidest puudust. Terve oma elu olen ühte või teise musikaalsesse gruppi kuulunud ja nüüd ... laulan üksi dušši all või tube koristades ' and a-i-a willl aaaal-ways loooove yooo-u-u-aaa will always love you'. Ja nii ongi.
Lootused seoses septembris Kölni kolimisega on suured. Lõpuks ometi oma elamine saada ja ise seal boss olla. Ma ei räägigi nii väga sellest ajast kui kodus elasin kuivõrd pigem sellest nüüdseks piinavaks saanud Au-Pairi elust. Pole tähtsust kui ilusad ja toredad need inimesed võivad olla, üks edasipürgiv noorik tahab endale varem või hiljem täiesti ise enda pleissi. Kui ma räägiks kohalikku keelt, ei oleks see ammu juba enam probleemiks.

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Ma kohe päris ausalt ei jõua ära oodata, milla ma jälle koju saan. Nädalake augustis. Loodetavasti on see piisavalt. Ja ega ma muud ei tahagi kui oma pisikeses toa-moodi ruumis oma enda tillukeses voodis tsillida, teed juua ja raamatut lugeda. Vahelduseks oma silmarõõmudega maad ja ilmad paika panna ja siis kuskil koduses nurgas end jälle kerra tõmmata ja koduõhku nautida. Ilmselt rõskes ja õhtuselt niiskes õhus pimedas tühjadel tänavatel jalutama minna ja ehk kellegi õhtuke soojalt auravate muffinitega rõõmsamaks teha. Ma ei viitsi ringi tõmmelda, poole ööni või pigem hommikuni kuskil ringi möllata, et siis hommikul 10 aeg silmad raskelt lahti teha, sest tahan ju päevasest ajast siiski maksimumi võtta. Pigem muhetseks lähedastega viisakalt hiliste tundideni ja tõuseks varakult, et nautida päikesetõusu, kohvi ja hommikust värskelt lõhnavat ajalehte. Jah, päris ausalt öeldes teeks ma paljusid neid asju Saaremaal, selles kadaka hõngus ja värskes tuule-iilis. Tahab keegi mind sinna viia? Või õigemini öeldes, tahab keegi minuga sinna minna? Oi kuidas ma igatsen Saaremaad, selle õhku, loodust, päikest ja tuult. No täiesti teine maailm on. Nüüd ma juba palun, et keegi minuga sinna kaasa tuleks!

.. mõte jooksis jälle kokku. Jäi sinna meretaustal olevale kadakale, mis kergelt lõuna tuules õõtsub ..

Vähemalt on unemõtted ilusad.

The puzzle

2011-07-19T11:32:00.000-07:00

Piece by piece you build up your life you've always dreamed of and though it may take a while, with hard work, determination and patience you'll see that, eventually, everything will fall into its place.

Men's RTW Spring 2012

2011-06-25T10:22:00.000-07:00

Dsquared² - prob my favorite collection overall but these two looks are by far the best!

Balmain - hard to pick out my favorite, the whole collections gives better impression.

Givenchy Whooaa, let's surf baby!

Dwyane Wade front row for YSL. Miami Heat guard looks grrreat! :)

DVF up close in Harper's Bazaar

2011-05-18T11:05:00.000-07:00

Chuck Close: In the ’70s, when the women’s movement came along, I thought, Oh, women will not be truly liberated until they don’t care about how they look in the same way that men tend not to care how they look. Instead of women moving to be more like men, men have moved to be more like women.

Read more: Diane von Furstenberg Interview - Chuck Close Portrait of Diane Von Furstenberg - Harper's BAZAAR

It's so easy for men to make women happy.

2011-05-18T06:26:00.000-07:00

It's quite long but keep reading ;)

For that, man just has to be a:
1. friend
2. partner
3. lover
4. brother
5. father
6. teacher
7. educator
8. confessor
9. trustee
10. cook
11. engineer
12. household appliance installer
13. electrician
14. driver
15. luggage carrier
16. cleaner
17. plumber
18. carpenter
19. model
20. interior designer
21. sexologist
22. psychologist
23. psychiatrist
24. Psychotherapist

Some characteristics are also important. Man just has to be:
1. pleasant
2. athletic
3. intelligent
4. vigorous
5. moral
6. strict
7. gentle
8. affectionate
9. determined
10. romantic
11. masculine
12. with a good sense of humor
13. entertaining
14. serious
15. dignified
16. brave
17. teddy bear
18. energetic
19. thoughtful
20. creative
21. full of ideas
22. skillful
23. self-confident
24. understanding
25. elegant
26. consistent
27. warm
28. cool
29. passionate
30. tolerant
31. has principles
32. revered
33. noble
34. practical
35. pragmatic
36. fair
37. ready to do anything for her (such as bank robbery, etc.)
38. desperate (for love)
39. restrained
40. charming
41. stable
42. loyal
43. sagacious
44. dreamy
45. ambitious
46. reliable
47. revered
48. and most important - CAPABLE OF PAYING (her stuff)

At the same time, the man must pay attention to the fact that he:
a) would not be jealous, but still interested
b) to get along with his family well, but do not dedicate more time for them than on Her
c) allows enough freedom for the woman, but still shows that he cares
d) dresses elegantly, while being ready to carry her through knee-deep mud, climb into the room through the balcony when she forgot her keys and catch the thief, who took Her purse, which has vitally necessary items in it like a mirror, a comb and a lipstick.

In addition, it is important that the man did not forget:
1. wife's birthday
2. her name days
3. your wedding day
4. anniversary of your first kiss
5. her period
6. her dentist appointment
7. your anniversaries
8. her BFF's and her favorite aunt's Bday

Unfortunately, even if you manage to follow all the instructions mentioned above, it is not a guarantee to success. A woman can be tired of man's ideal existence in their lives and may feel too much under his influence and therefore she may take off with the first cute guitar player or just have some fun aside.

And now the other side of the coin.
Making a man happy is so much more difficult because the guy just needs:
1) sex
2) food

The majority of women find such high demands from men extremely enslaving. Fulfilling those needs is more than they're capable of.

CONCLUSION: Harmonious coexistence is easily achieved when the man finally understands that they must limit their inappropriate demands.

Good luck!

P.Coelho "The Pilgrimage"

2011-04-27T05:42:00.000-07:00

2nd time I read it and still finding new thoughts to catch on. Dropped the book into my purse the other day when I was feeling rather down and thought why don't I read something for a change. So I read the couple of first pages in the train and got hooked. It was just THE book for me at the time.
I thank my good Brazilian friend for bringing that book back to me and P.Coelho for being such a great writer!

Some lines from the book:

- In order to grow you have to continue moving along, always moving along.
- When you are moving toward and objective it is very important to pay attention to the road. It is the road that teaches us the best way to get there, and the road enriches us as we walk its length. You can compare it to a sexual relationship: the caresses of foreplay determine the intensity of the orgasm. Everyone knows that.
- Time isn't something that always proceeds at the same pace. It is we who determine how quickly time passes.
- But try to depend mainly on yourself (- so that you aren't coming and going for six days in the Pyrenees).
- We are always trying to convert people to a belief in our own explanation of the universe. We think that the more people there are who believe as we do, the more certain it will be that what we believe is the truth. But it doesn't work that way at all.
- She's trying to neaten up the world because she herself is in complete disorder.
- Philos is love in the form of friendship. It's what I feel toward you and others. When the flame of eros stops burning, it is philos that keeps a couple together. (Eros - the feeling of love that exists between two people.)
- It's a good idea always to do something relaxing prior to making an important decision in your life.
- Don't start making fantasies in a world that is already extraordinary.
- Your confidence and your sense of mastery depend a great deal on how you react to threats made by others. A threat leads to nothing if it is not accepted.
- A verse in the Book of Job says, "For the thing that I greatly feared is come upon me."
- You have your own way of living your life, of dealing with problems, and of winning. Teaching is only demonstrating that it is possible. Learning is making it possible for yourself.
- Once a problem is solved, it's simplicity is amazing.
- The only way to make the right decision is to know what the wrong decision is.
- You should always confront the world with the same weapons that were used to challenge you.

2011-04-13T08:18:00.000-07:00

At What Price Beauty? Check Today’s Deal

article in NY Times

Carnival 2011

2011-03-08T08:57:00.000-08:00

I am an amazing blogger, I know. Sorry, for taking forever to get back here!

In the meantime, there's lots that has happened. The most recent news is that Carnival season just peaked in western Germany. I celebrated it both in Düsseldorf and in Cologne.

It started off on Thursday with a big party on the streets, I thought I'd just go and take a look what's it all about and how much people actually dress up for it. So I decided to go casual yet I put a little feather in my hair as I was told that I might pop out if dressed up as usual. Good I listened cause even with that feather I was the one feeling strange in my everyday clothes...

All that trash made it look really festive ofc

For the second Carnival day I pulled off the Natalie Portman "Black Swan" outfit. Here's a shot:

Yet the celebrations went on we took a little time off on Saturday but kept going on Sunday.

Saw my first Carnival train close to Cologne in Bergisch Gladbach, collected candy that was thrown at the people and asked (read: yelled/screamed) for flowers and gave a kiss for it once you got one.

Went for an easier outfit on that day, college girl.
PS. with a true Cologner

As my friends had a gig at Düsseldorf's Carnival train I missed the big train in Cologne on Monday but saw the one in Düsseldorf and spent my morning with Big Mama's!

Dressing up and getting ready

Waiting for the train to start moving - hugged by two dear Big Mama's :)

Promoting the new Big Mama's movie

And the Zuch kütt..aka Carnival train took off.

Separated from my two dear Big Mama friends after walking with them in the train for a bit and met up with my normal sized friends. :))

..to check out other cars in the Düsseldorf's Carnival train

Eurovision Song Contest car (contest held in Düsseldorf this year)
featured also Estonian flag which I got really excited about, yay!

Guess the most Brazilian looking part of that train.

..and that's how my first Carnival in Germany passed by - loads of
fun with great people!

Shot from Friday night, getting ready to head out in Cologne.

2011-02-14T11:51:00.000-08:00

Beauty is constantly redefined, it is the joy that you feel when you discover it.

Ann Demeulemeester

2011-02-10T13:17:00.000-08:00

Life is a party and if you are clever you take money at the door.

Michael Michalsky

Mrs. Rainbow Hepburn

2011-02-03T04:26:00.000-08:00

Mrs. Rainbow Hepburn
/colored markers

Agreed, the rainbow could be played out better but I had to use what I had at home. Fair enough couple of lighter colors ran out and I had to go and get new ones. (In real the left side of her isn't as black as it looks on the picture. It actually has purple, dark blue, light(er) blue and green in it.)
Talking about getting new ones, I found a great art supplies store in Düsseldorf. Never have I imagined that you can get such cheap oil painting start off kit!!
Anyway, the one that I found is in Altstad Düsseldorf, called Artservice & Tube.

In the afternoon that I found that shop with my friend, we also found a cute little bookstore that caught my eye with it's wide fashion books selection. So we got stuck there for an hour or so and I came out of there with "Fashion now 2" (T.Jones & S.Rushton). Great fashion encyclopedia of current fashion designers just for €10! And believe me, that's a lot of book for that money! As well it's in 3 languages two of them being English and German which means I can now learn the language while reading about stuff I love!

Passed by an interesting Indian style store. Interesting details but clothes made out of those would take a lot to pull off. Or would just look better worn by an older person. Shame that all those cool details aren't used to make funky youthful stuff.

Loved the idea of a rose pillow

Bis Später!

Ewert and The Two Dragons - (In The End) There's Only Love

2011-01-31T15:30:00.000-08:00

I like!

Coco

2011-01-19T10:29:00.000-08:00

- He loves me. You see, he introduces me to his friends.

- It is to show his friends that he sleeps with a young girl.

Love is beautiful only in novels. It touches the heart.

The only thing that matters in love is making love. Too bad for that we need a man.

Coco before Chanel stars Audrey Tautou, Benoît Poelvoorde and Alessandro Nivola.

Dolce & Gabbana Men's Fall Winter 2011 Fashion Show

2011-01-18T12:40:00.000-08:00

Oh boy, don't they look delicious!

I'm not really into this androgyne thing that seems to be getting more and more popular among men's fashion. I just don't think that fancy and shiny handbags are something for men. True, some guys can carry it out impeccably and I do admire, then again I'm not so sure about men's clutches.. Maybe I'm just old-fashioned, shame on me!

Anyhow, I prefer manly men, like those D&G handsome looking misters here. Manliness just flows out of it - outfits, models looks, styling, music, show itself - it's self conscious, confident, strong, inviting yet rejecting, and overall so irresistible! Did I mentioned man power? :)

Me like!

Kõrval tänaval

2011-01-18T08:41:00.000-08:00

Just if I haven't mentioned it yet, Ich liebe Deutschland!

Don't wait up, cause I just might stay here a little longer ;)

(I just wish I could already speak the language! Oh wait, wishing prob won't do it, guess I still have to learn it -.- )

Düsseldorf HBF, catching a train to Cologne. Don't ask.

Made a little shopping tour last weekend in Cologne. This time didn't go down the main shopping streets tho, took a little path to the side and guess what we found ;) Me likey!

Kauf dich glücklich - http://www.kaufdichgluecklich.de/

I love loud! I hear loud! I live loud! - www.iloveloud.com

And just in case you haven't met yet, I introduce you: DESIGUAL! - www.desigual.com

Found their store in Cologne couple of weeks ago and got amazed. Later on figured that I had actually walked by it several times before without noticing it.. straaange.

And isn't the Kölner Dom just amazing?! It's just worth to live in there because of that glooorious cathedral! I mean, I'm not living there but.. I wish! 30min from it isn't bad either :))

Picks from pre-FALL'11 collections

2010-12-28T15:28:00.000-08:00

Some looks from J.Mendel pre-FALL'11 collection that I find fab!

Model: Lisanne De Jong

Luca Luca pre-FALL'11

Simple and sharp but yet so lux.

So luscious and sweet Naeem Khan!

I can feel the texture from those pics, lovely!

Monique Lhuillier

I'm not so fond of the Preen's collection in general but I do find these pieces real charmers.

Has this funky touch to it.

Thakoon
Model: Julia Saner

United Bamboo
Model: Naomi Preizler

Looks so comfy, cozy and warm, right?

Zac Posen

Model: Hilary Rhoda

Model: Anna Cleveland

Chanel's this season was inspired by the Empress Theodora and the lost culture of Byzantium. Chanel Paris-Byzance- see the full show from their webpage.
There is just no look that I wouldn't like!

Burberry Prorsum pre-FALL 2011

2010-12-28T13:50:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to like Burberry more and more with every new collection they come out with. I'm still craving for those boots from the previous season. Anyway, wanted to share some of my favorite looks from the Burberry Prorsum pre-FALL'11 collection.

It has this self-confident, elegant and in the same time somehow careless touch to it. Love it!

Female model: Lisanne De Jong

Random shots

2010-12-27T15:11:00.000-08:00

Paide Vallitorn, 11/11/2010

Amsterdam, "The Eye" 11/13/2010

Shopping in Cologne, 11/27/2010

Walk around the neighborhood, Arnhem, 12/1/2010

Snowy Arnhem, 12/20/2010

Shopping for an eraser For REALLY BIG Mistakes (10x5cm), Arnhem

Päevatera:

Meie hing on küllalt saanud tunda

jultunute irvitust ja uhkete põlgust.

Process

2010-12-27T14:45:00.000-08:00

Dream red coat!!

2010-12-11T06:00:00.000-08:00

Moschino Cheap & Chic Pre-Fall 2011

Me kõik oleme kord koheldud paremini veel kui kuningad

2010-12-09T14:54:00.000-08:00

Arvad, et kuningatel on ilus elu ja kõik tehakse ette-taha ära? Mõtle uuesti. Ise sa oled saanud täpselt samasugust teenindust, et mitte öelda paremat. I mean.. öeldakse, et on ainult üks koht kuhu kuningas jalgsi läheb. Tita ei pea isegi sinna minema, ajab oma asjad ära mil tahab ning teatab siis valjult, et nüüd peaks keski appi tulema. Toit on nagu kellavärk ja noh.. piimast ei olegi ju midagi maitsvamat. :) Kui uni tuleb, ei keelata seda sulle kunagi! Maga milla tahad, paradiis! Ja muidu ülejäänud aja aina naeratad oma emmele ja issile kui nad sulle mingit lolli mula ajavad, ilmselt üritades vestlust arendada. Igast värvilisi kulinaid ja kölinaid topitakse ka igale poole, mõtle kui põnev! Ja noh, stressist ei ole halli aimugi. Ei pea ka kellegi hinge hinna eest meeldida püüdma või pugema - nad kõik armastavad sind ju tingimusteta!
Õnneks beebidena ei ole meil ka aimu mingitest moetrendidest, uutest tehnikaimedest ega Hr. Rahast.

Samas jällegi, terve elu ei tahaks beebi ka olla. Jääks liialt paljust ilma.

Head jõulu ooteaega!

TRAIN's concert and dinner table thoughts

2010-12-07T14:30:00.000-08:00

I was listening to TRAIN throughout the day so I remembered that I also took some videos of their concert that we went to at the of October.

So here's the very best part of that concert - "When I look to the Sky" a capella :)

Another super sweet song was "Marry Me"

During that song Pat was walking around in the crowd giving hugs and taking pictures with the people in the audience.

Picks from our conversation with my host mom tonight:

Why do people want to hurt back once they've gotten hurt? Reflection? You say, we can't help our feelings, we reflect them. Satisfaction? Might be, but for how long? You'll still have the pain AND you also hurt the other person which makes two people in pain. So why couldn't we just swallow it and think why did it hurt in the first place? Is there something inside of Me that I should be working on? Could we ever figure ourselves out so that no word could ever harm us?

That's what happens when you're having dinner with a psychologist ;)

2010-12-07T13:35:00.000-08:00

Arnhem, 6.12.2010, 5pm

Arnhem, Netherlands

2010-12-05T06:29:00.000-08:00

Saturday, Dec 4, 5pm

Moearmastajast raamatukoile

2010-12-05T05:55:00.000-08:00

Fashion Trendsetter's pick for the best Fashion books.

As for me, I've read one of them, "The End of Fashion" by Teri Agins. Read it, loved it!

Sinterklaas

2010-12-02T07:06:00.000-08:00

Yay, Sinterklaas is coming on 5th! Which means there's gonna be lots and lots of candy! :))

And I already got my chocolate letter, typical Sinterklaas candy. :)

Hakkame maiustama!

HURTS

2010-12-01T11:30:00.000-08:00

Just had to add those two here. Currently my two very favorite songs.

HURTS - Wonderful Life

HURTS - Stay

And aren't those videos just so amazing!?

Mönušš :)

2010-11-30T14:34:00.000-08:00

For you all, who were waiting for this new blog - here it is! :)

Natuke veel üles haipimist ja korras. Ahjaa, postitama pean ka hakkama :)

Kisses
Anne